I found a new purpose to my life in a kinda round about way. It sounds dumb, and is a bit embarrassing for me, but I want to give credit where it is due. I suppose it starts with a quote.
A story begins somewhere…
Over time I have read plenty of great quotes. Wonderfully uplifting, motivational words. For example:
There are so many more. These are great, but didn’t help me with one of my bigger problems. Not only do I suffer from low self-esteem, but I’ve been struggling to find a purpose beyond being a mother.
Trying to be OK with life in general not having a purpose didn’t help. I still needed a direction for myself. For the longest time my kids were enough. They take enough time and energy those first few years, it can be very easy to let them be your sole focus. So, with my kids being out of the stages that require such intense focus, I found myself a bit lost. I didn’t need to spend all my time chasing them, researching solutions, and caring for them. I had unfocused time that was filled with nothing of importance. This contributed to my depression to the point where my whole existence was centered around trying to survive depression and anxiety.
Now I have the right meds, and they made a big difference, but I was still struggling somehow.